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29.12.09

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28.12.09

WELCOME TO TODAY'S ENTRY :D

It all started
Yesterday while I was watching the promise on channel U, my phone rang a few times. I didn’t bother me much until my mum gave me a probing question. She asked me “Why must you choose something that sounds so devastatingly emotional song as your ring tone?” My respond to her was “And why must you care so much about my ring tone?” That ended the conversation, but there true was it affected me for the night. I have not really been in the best of my mood periodically. And frequently I kept nagging here about how dejected I am or depress I am. I pretty much know that by doing so won’t change anything but more often I don’t know what else I can do or who I can turn to – so I guess blogging is my only opinion.

There's always a time to do everything
I always remember myself saying that there’s a time to be happy and there’s a time to be sad. Smile when you are happy and cry when you are suppose to be sad. Life aint perfect – that’s a fact.
Well I mean maybe there might be some really really blessed people that are happy all their life , but more often life is a mixture events that sometimes makes you smile from ear to ear and sometimes let tears wet your eyes.
I always feel when you are sad, then really make sure you indulge (I realized that I use this word a lot.) Yourself in sorrows just like the way you would when you are happy.

Always so emotional ?
Actually it’s the same thing that always bothers me with emotions actually.
Unluckily they so just happen to share a mutual connection among each other. So it really just takes a little pinch of unhappiness to trigger the largest amount of sorrowful memories that a person can ever have.

The random thought
I’m a person with random thoughts. I can be glad over the smallest thing and be gloomily at the weirdest thing. This morning I woke up with another random realization of my life. These events that affected me in the future the way it used to. It’s not going to get any better or fade with time. Instead as time goes by, more will be added to the sad episode of my life.
However, since I can’t do a thing about it. Why not life with it? LOL! This sounds so less convincing as compared to what is going through my mind. But who can I blame for my poor command of English.

The new change
I think I’ve reached the bottom of the emotion pit and I’m really to hit again high up to the other extreme. From today onwards, I’m going to live life to the fullest and enjoy everyday like never before. Get ready the used to be happy go lucky me, cause here I come for you.

I’m out of my mind now and I feel really comfortable with myself now.
Pardon me if I don’t make any sense. HAHA

Laugh and smile thru in life even if you are not really that happy.

Word count 497 words

26.12.09

I have been thinking, if you really love and care about someone so much, how are you going to live on with lives if you lost that somebody that you once treasured so much. In what state of mind will you be in when you walk pass all the different places that arose memorable happenings of the past? Recently I have witness a lot from the hardcore romances that turned bad to several torn and broken friendships.
It began to make me once again realize how fragile relationships among humanity can be.
The couple that seems to be filled with everlasting love that broke up.
The friendship that seems to be so unbreakable still gave way to realistic.
People got hurt and tears come rolling down.
Dreams are broken and hopes are shattered.

The person that you can no long consider as special loves one or that person that you can no long call “BEST FRIEND”. What is in common is that they will no long be there for you. Let along to fulfill the promises that were once shared.

After seeing so much and experience so much I really do not know if I really would wish for someone that special to appear in my life again.

Anyway, on a lighter note.
I spent my Xmas eve at Mr Javier Cheung 's house.
Phew! At least his dogs aint that irritating :D if not i think i would have a hard time there.
He played good host.
And guess what , i gotten his present for xmas exchange.
Thanks Mr :D

Went home right on the dot of Xmas. (although that was an Xmas gathering)
Everyone was tired.
For some reason we didn't took a very complete photo with everybody inside.

25.12.09

Merry Xmas people !
Well , it has quite sometime (well maybe not that long) since i have the urge to blog about stuff.
Whether you like it or not the week is only left with weekends in 50mins time.
Have not been able to figure out what’s wrong with for lately.
Isn’t xmas session suppose be a season of love?
Why is it that I can’t feel a thing about that?

Perhaps I have been spending too much time since that start of this week doing nothing.
Sometimes I just wished that I could either be a little bit more emotionless or dumb.

I guess periodically I would devote myself to anybody.
Not to my family members
Not be my friends
And not even to myself.

Because I’m lost.
Fallen into a state of emotion that nothing matters to the heart; a smile on the face does not significantly means happiness in that comes deep within.

21.12.09

“这次不一样了”
“这次真的不一样了”

我不断在脑海里告诉我自己
每个人都有自己的命运
自己得经历的一切
也许很多人认为我是在妄自菲簿
但我却认为是他们无法诠释我的哀怨
尘世间悲哀莫过于此
寻寻觅觅却寥寥无几

也许是我哪里不好，也许是我不乖，又或者是孽缘。
但。。。
算了。

这次真的不一样了，我会让它安安静静的沉静在内心深处。
不去打扰任何人。
这次不一样了
这次真的不一样了

Still somehow

17.12.09

Life’s a bitch.

Everybody seems to have their own problems now.
Holiday is finally going to be here in another day’s time but somehow I’m not really looking forward to it now.
Thought things seem to be fine but there are a lot of unrest going around.
Today was an okay day for me I guess.
Still feeling nasty deep down but at least I still appeared normal (I suppose)
Not because of the quarrel but because I feel insecurity within.
I’m still trying to find something for me to take comfort in.

Meanwhile, I can only cross my fingers and hope that life doesn’t get any more bitchy-er .

♥

16.12.09

16 December 2009,

I gave the one hour lecture a miss. Woke up quite early still. Watch drama through till noon, fixed pasta for lunch and went down to city hall. Bugis-ed before we went to slack at mac at brass bersa.
That’s my day.
No mood to blog now because I just ending a quarreling session . Harsh words and comments went all over the place.
I almost blunt everything out but still I held back.

I hope that someone can hug me tight tonight and tell me everything will be fine.
Just fine.

I really thought if i try really hard enough
and
waited really long enough
somebody will appear someday standing there for me.

多少次泪在眼眶
我用微笑抵挡
强颜欢笑告诉自己，我不在乎
但心中的眼泪还是骗不过自己。

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